befuddled Posted July 25, 2004 Report Share Posted July 25, 2004 Don't ever show Don't ever tell Not a trace on your face No words to utter you'll just stutter. The pain is too deep for sound just show that smile you found If you show your broken heart it will fall apart. Don't ever confide the terror inside just skip down the street laugh with the people you meet There is nothing to say 'xept the role that you play 'xept the words you rehearse or you'll die from the curse. With that nice polished mask you are up to the task you can make fun and after you can hear people's laughter And your heart, it bleeds, and you hide your needs and you hold no one's hand They would not understand. Don't ever show Don't ever tell Not a trace on your face No words to utter you'll just stutter. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Betsy Posted July 25, 2004 Report Share Posted July 25, 2004 all of the above+ Dont every trust or your heart will bust keep your feelings suspended or you may find things ended thx... did u write that for me, expressing my feelings? bets Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
befuddled Posted July 25, 2004 Author Report Share Posted July 25, 2004 That verse fits in perfectly.... I wrote that in my teens about myself as little girl. A long time has passed and it still applies. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Betsy Posted July 25, 2004 Report Share Posted July 25, 2004 that also would be true of my teens.. the only thing that has changed is i know myself better and meeting everyone here has helped me see that i am not unique and not alone. i truly hope this knowledge and active involvement in trying to recover is truly going to be a life changing experience for me. i am just beginning... old tapes are hard to erase. bets Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
befuddled Posted July 25, 2004 Author Report Share Posted July 25, 2004 That's the old tape that is still running. I have come a long way and changed a lot of things. Most importantly I am not destructive to me or others anymore, but the mask remains. I think it is really a part of me - it has become me just as clearly as the hidden person is. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Betsy Posted July 25, 2004 Report Share Posted July 25, 2004 i agree... about the mask is you (or mine me) surely that is as real as the other part... i have worn mine so long.. it must be me. it is just when i am alone that it falls... i have no one for distration. somedays i cant put on the mask... i guess for me it does fall.. and i usually end up bitting one of my staff and feeling bad for that... then i put on the withdrawl mask and the physical spaces in my reality begin moving. bets Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
befuddled Posted July 25, 2004 Author Report Share Posted July 25, 2004 Sometimes I think the Mask is more me than the "real" me. Certainly the mask has more fun. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Betsy Posted July 25, 2004 Report Share Posted July 25, 2004 actually when discussing this with my t he said the mask person was part of me Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
befuddled Posted July 25, 2004 Author Report Share Posted July 25, 2004 That makes sense. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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