Surviving Angel Posted May 21, 2005 Report Share Posted May 21, 2005 Hello People As you probably guessed by the title I am new here. I don't really know where to start as I am pretty nervous as I have never done anything like this before. Everyone calls me Eva and I live in the UK with my fiancé and my cats. My fiancé and my cats are my world and my everything. Without them I don't know how I would cope. I have been abused ever since I can remember and it only stopped a few years ago when I met my fiancé who helped me so much. I still suffer from some abuse from my parents but at least its psychical/sexual as before. As they can only do so much over the phone and the rare times i see them. I suffer from depression and I also used to self harm. But with the help of my fiancé I managed to beat it although its still a battle every day and sometimes I still want to do it. I also had a severe eating problem when I met my fiancé but with his help and support I managed to fight it and now I am recovering. It is still hard and still a battle to keep going just like with my self harm but I know with his support I can do this. I guess the other thing you should know about me is that I have a long term illness. I have been ill for about 5 years now and it effects me every day of my life. I have something called M.E but its also sometimes/rarely known as CFS. I find it very hard to cope and have it pretty severely. It has made me very lonely as I spend a lot of the time at home and only get our rarely. I really don't know what else to say about it, but if you want to ask me anything feel free. I don't think there is much else I can say, I am very scared and lonely. I don't have many friends and am stuck at home a lot. Things have been pretty hard lately and I am finding it really hard to cope with what has happened to me. I know it has changed me and that really scares me sometimes. I guess I am just really lucky to of found my fiance...because without him I'd still be in that hell and I know I wouldn't of survived. So thats why I choose my user name as Surviving Angel...because I am Surviving and I know one day when my sister is old enough i can cut all ties with my parents and hopefully never be abused in any way again. Yikes this has turned pretty long, but I hope you sticked around to have a look. I look forward to your replies as right now I am feeling scared, nervous and very lonely. Take gentle care of yourselves Eva x *Surviving Angel* Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lauren Posted May 21, 2005 Report Share Posted May 21, 2005 Hey Eva! Welcome! I know someone with ME he struggles really badly with it. He sleeps a hell of a lot and finfs it very hard and painfull to walk far at all. It is a horrible disorder! ((((Hugs))))) Hope that you find lots of support here! L xx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LadyMacbeth Posted May 21, 2005 Report Share Posted May 21, 2005 Welcome to BPDWORLD Eva! Nice to meet you. I am sure you will find this a friendly and supportive place. Looking forward to getting to know you. Emma xxx :) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Katherine Posted May 21, 2005 Report Share Posted May 21, 2005 I can understand your feelings of new nervousness...(((((Eva))))) Welcome! love, Katie who in real life is really really quiet! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Janie Posted May 21, 2005 Report Share Posted May 21, 2005 Hi Eva and to BPD world .... good to meet you and hope to see you around as you settle in everyone here is really supportive and its a great place im glad you found us luv Janie xxxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
moonshadow Posted May 21, 2005 Report Share Posted May 21, 2005 :welcomeani: moonshadow Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Surviving Angel Posted May 21, 2005 Author Report Share Posted May 21, 2005 Do you all want to hear something slightly funny and embarrassing? I am so new to all this I thought I had registered for something else...lol. I thought I was registering for the Abuse forum but in fact i was registering for the main forum. Oops silly me *blushes* So i have never even looked around this board, so i guess I better start. I hope I am ok to be here as I suffer from depression and a few other things to say the least. I am feeling a little over whelmed by how big the place is but hopefully I'll settle in soon and feel more comfortable. Thank you all for your lovely replies, they mean a lot to me and making me feel less alone in all this. Eva *Surviving Angel* Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LadyMacbeth Posted May 21, 2005 Report Share Posted May 21, 2005 Of course you are welcome here. Not everyone here is BPD. We cover other mental health issues. You will settle in soon I am sure. You will get used to us. :D Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Surviving Angel Posted May 21, 2005 Author Report Share Posted May 21, 2005 Thank you I am feeling a little bit better now but still nervous. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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