allthetime Posted June 16, 2011 Report Share Posted June 16, 2011 Hi there! I'm new to this site so i thought i'd drop a quick post in here. I've been through a lot with ED units, being assessed, diagnosed and then going through treatment. I'm now considered "in recovery" (go me!) and thought I'd put my boot in and see if I can help anyone with sharing my personal experiences/advice. I'm pretty open (being anonymous on the internet definately helps!) and will try the best I can to answer any questions etc, but I still find a lot of things triggering, and I can't give medical advice as I have no qualifications, the only knowledge I have is based on my own experience. Questions or just needing someone to talk to, feel free to message me the offer is always there allthetime x Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
vampire Posted June 16, 2011 Report Share Posted June 16, 2011 Hey well I used to have eating problems with my OCD when it would tell me I couldnt eat due to something bad would happen if I did (was having killing thoughts at the time was 13 to and very skinny back then) also in 2006 aged 15 I went skinny again stopped eating and worked out a lot i was very pale and skinny! but then with my working out I decided to gain weight and body build to be like jeff hardy and I got quit hench haha but now my body is normal and im well built Id like to hear all about you and your experince if you feel comfortable in telling me also id like to be here for you I do not have much experince in this field but it is awesome your on the way to recovery so pleased about that (: I am 20 years old and going through HOCD but cant imagine what you have been going through but yeah I am here anytime if you want to talk also dont be so anonymus go public with a avatar pic! be proud lol much love james xxxxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CrippleAndStarfish Posted June 16, 2011 Report Share Posted June 16, 2011 hiya allthetime, and welcome It's really great to hear you're in recovery. I'm classed as being in recovery too, though recently (went into crisis, meds changes etc) i've found that i've relapsed a bit, but I do feel confident that i can pull myself out of it as i've not fallen too far. I'm currently mid-referral back into the community mental health team following my discharge from their services last year, and part of that involves being referred on to a dietitian (dietician? i can never spell that word!!) to help me draw up some new meal plans and stuff like that. Can i ask how long you've been in recovery for? And also, if you use things like meal planners to help create some sort of structure? If so, do you find it helps you? I have a bit of a struggle with it, as i think the rebel in me wants to go against anything that is down in black and white - which is bit of a pain! sorry, am being a bit nosey, but you did say to ask questions Crip xx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
allthetime Posted June 16, 2011 Author Report Share Posted June 16, 2011 Hey well I used to have eating problems with my OCD when it would tell me I couldnt eat due to something bad would happen if I did (was having killing thoughts at the time was 13 to and very skinny back then) also in 2006 aged 15 I went skinny again stopped eating and worked out a lot i was very pale and skinny! but then with my working out I decided to gain weight and body build to be like jeff hardy and I got quit hench haha but now my body is normal and im well built Id like to hear all about you and your experince if you feel comfortable in telling me also id like to be here for you I do not have much experince in this field but it is awesome your on the way to recovery so pleased about that (: I am 20 years old and going through HOCD but cant imagine what you have been going through but yeah I am here anytime if you want to talk also dont be so anonymus go public with a avatar pic! be proud lol much love james xxxxx Did you ever have any medical help with your eating? Or did you have to deal with it alone? Any questions you have I'll be happy to answer, Im not good at talking about it face-to-face so I'm not experienced about discussing this, but I'll try my best :) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
allthetime Posted June 16, 2011 Author Report Share Posted June 16, 2011 hiya allthetime, and welcome It's really great to hear you're in recovery. I'm classed as being in recovery too, though recently (went into crisis, meds changes etc) i've found that i've relapsed a bit, but I do feel confident that i can pull myself out of it as i've not fallen too far. I'm currently mid-referral back into the community mental health team following my discharge from their services last year, and part of that involves being referred on to a dietitian (dietician? i can never spell that word!!) to help me draw up some new meal plans and stuff like that. Can i ask how long you've been in recovery for? And also, if you use things like meal planners to help create some sort of structure? If so, do you find it helps you? I have a bit of a struggle with it, as i think the rebel in me wants to go against anything that is down in black and white - which is bit of a pain! sorry, am being a bit nosey, but you did say to ask questions Crip xx Feel free to question! And hi there! Thats amazing that you can recognise when things are going a bit pear-shaped and you need some help/to change your behaviours. Do you have a care co-ordinator? Right, questions...hmm.. I've been in recovery officially for a month (and I'm celebrating & feeling a bit pleased with myself!) I had a meal planner when i was in the worst of my ED, writing it all down and showing someone "normal" helped me to realise how crazy i was going. I don't have a meal planner now as I try to be a little less controlling, I find if i start a regimine then I'll follow it to the letter and start getting obsessive all over again! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
vampire Posted June 16, 2011 Report Share Posted June 16, 2011 Dealt with my eating problems alone I guess it wasnt to serious tbh I now am well built for an emo bastard xD and so has your eating disorder taking over a lot of your life i am guessing it has like how long have you suffered with it and what is it like being in and out of hospital and do you have any relationships as in bfs does it effect that how much support do you get and how did it all start and what do you think is the cause of it? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
wonderful Posted June 17, 2011 Report Share Posted June 17, 2011 Hi allthetime. I'm also in recovery, have been for umm maybe a year now... I wasn't in treatment when I was at my worst with my ED. My mum thought she could deal with me and "save" me on her own. She sat and watched me/forced me to eat all day every day for 2 weeks. I then decided to gain weight to make her believe I was okay again and then go back to starving. Mum realised that I wasn't getting better and I was once again taken to the Drs and have now been going to an ED clinic for about a year-ish. I have my last appt. with my care co-ordinator next week and then I won't have to attend the ED clinic again unless my therapist is worried about my weight/eating For the first time I actually feel like I can get better. I hope your recovery is going well, if you ever need support you can message me anytime :) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
allthetime Posted June 19, 2011 Author Report Share Posted June 19, 2011 Dealt with my eating problems alone I guess it wasnt to serious tbh I now am well built for an emo bastard xD and so has your eating disorder taking over a lot of your life i am guessing it has like how long have you suffered with it and what is it like being in and out of hospital and do you have any relationships as in bfs does it effect that how much support do you get and how did it all start and what do you think is the cause of it? Ive had it since i was about 11, so about 10 years now. Its taken over my whole life, I had to quit my jobs and uni and everything. Luckily I've never had to stay overnight as a direct result of my ED, never on a specialist ED ward, but it has caused complications that have lead to me being in hospital a lot. Its a bit of a downer on relationships. I didnt tell my ex because i was dealing with it okay and my behaviours were under control, but then he said I was getting too fat and it suddenly flooded back and I went downhill pretty quickly. I have a relatively new boyfriend now, and I was very honest with him from the start. When we met all I was doing during the week was going to the ED unit for treatment and having DBT, so when he'd ask about work or uni it was a bit awkward. Just coming out and telling him took some serious guts and stressed me out especially seeing as we'd only known each other a week, but it gave him the option to just walk away if it was too heavy for him. Luckily he stayed and he's awesome about it. Turns out he'd guessed by my size and the way I acted around food anyway. In the beginning I had no support, when I told my parents my mum said "But youre too fat to have an eating disorder." Now however, after hearing everything first hand from the doctors and seeing how sick I got, my parents are better and supportive, but they don't really know how to help. As for dr support I have a lovely doctor who's very understanding, I have an ED nurse who I see regularly and I have a care co-ordinator who comes to my house every week. As to the cause, I have no idea. I havent had much therapy in order to fix the way my brain works or to find out where it comes from. just enough to get my behaviours under control. Wow, that was the longest answer ever!! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
allthetime Posted June 19, 2011 Author Report Share Posted June 19, 2011 Hi allthetime. I'm also in recovery, have been for umm maybe a year now... I wasn't in treatment when I was at my worst with my ED. My mum thought she could deal with me and "save" me on her own. She sat and watched me/forced me to eat all day every day for 2 weeks. I then decided to gain weight to make her believe I was okay again and then go back to starving. Mum realised that I wasn't getting better and I was once again taken to the Drs and have now been going to an ED clinic for about a year-ish. I have my last appt. with my care co-ordinator next week and then I won't have to attend the ED clinic again unless my therapist is worried about my weight/eating For the first time I actually feel like I can get better. I hope your recovery is going well, if you ever need support you can message me anytime Amazing! Your mum's version of help sounds harsh, but she must have put so much effort into helping you. You must be so proud that you dont have to go to the clinic anymore! Or maybe does it make you panic a little bit? Add me as a friend? It'd be nice to have a contact who's in a similar position :) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
wonderful Posted June 20, 2011 Report Share Posted June 20, 2011 Yeah mum's version was really harsh, I cried so much those 2 weeks. I also ate alot of very cold and disgusting food. She put so much effort into helping me, she nearly lost her job over it, I'm so ashamed and guilty about that. I am very proud I don't have to go to the clinic any more, but yeah it's a bit scary. But I think with recovery you're always going to have your good days and bad days, I'm just hoping I can handle the bad days. Will add you now :) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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