miss.smiff Posted July 16, 2011 Report Share Posted July 16, 2011 I wake up. Have a wash. Maybe some breakfast. Be tired all day everyday . I go to bed and try to sleep. I wake up. Have a wash. Maybe breakfast . pretend nothing is wrong. Go To work. Spend all day being tired. Try to get some sleep. Wake up. Wash. Maybe breakfast . Be tired. Go to bed... i don't get it... loved ones are ment to keep you here. As much as i love them I'm just hurting too much. I don't want to go on hurting anymore I'm soo tired. I can't carry on this pretending to be happy. But sometimes i am happy. It doesn't last for long. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lonelyheartemma Posted July 16, 2011 Report Share Posted July 16, 2011 ((((miss.smiff)))))) I'm so sorry I dont have any helpful words for you. I am thinking of you being loved can make such a difference, its sad it isnt always enough xxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
carlylight1 Posted July 16, 2011 Report Share Posted July 16, 2011 ((((miss smiff)))) i know its not always possible, but if you could think of small things to do in your day which you enjoy or little treats for yourself it can make a difference( could be anything like going for a walk, painting your nails, a bubble bath). i know its impossible sometimes to find the energy - emotional or physical energy- to do nice things for ourselves but i think being able to care and nurture ourselves is an important step in getting better.take care xxxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
miss.smiff Posted July 16, 2011 Author Report Share Posted July 16, 2011 I don't know what I'm ment to write any more. I am empty. Woke up. Washed. Changed. Work. Home. Grandad'S. Home. Bed. I'm wearing Liam's hoodie. I found a pretty piece of skin on my leg the other day. it's not pretty. i am not pretty i don't know if i like these meds. No sleep. Thirsty. Tired. I don't cry. I don't feel as down as much. But when i do it's a lot worse. I love you liam. But i don't understand why . I want to die so bad so i can just have some peace and sleep. But i don't want to leave you... I want to say so much x Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lily-Bee Posted July 16, 2011 Report Share Posted July 16, 2011 When I feel so numb and empty it helps me to treat myself as though I have a bad flu,meaning Im extra special nice to myself.Soothe myself,spoil myself. And trust that it will pass. Give the meds the time they need to get stable in your blood. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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