Aquaban And Dulcolax

[Insideoutgirl]

I have been taking substances such as Aquaban and dulcolax etc excessively since I was about 17 .. on and off. Im now 27 and still doing it. Its worse at times of stress. I know that it doesn't help me lose weight but it feels like a weight has been lifted... like a release or relief, a kind of cleanliness.

Anyhow I have taken up to about 30 dulcolax a day, my usually number being 20 and I recently managed to get it down to 10, and then 5. so was doing well. The aim was to get down to 2 when I feel the need to take them. I have promised my very supportive boyfriend to be aware of it and try to do something productive instead to vent such as typing on here..

Anyway It's been going ok but then I started to think if I took aquaban again instead then I would not be lying to him and would still be able to get the relief I need.

I have taken aquaban excessively in the past and ended up in hospital in need of potassium and on another occasion my hair started to come out so I had to see the trichologist.

My boyfriend sat up with me the other night unable to sleep for worry as I was shaking and dizzy from taking too many. I can't always rely on him to bale me out but I don't have anyone else I can talk to.

=(

[Benway]

Hiya, altho i have never gotten fond of diuretics/ laxatives (only because of a horrible exp with similar) i have had binge/ purge cycles to do with weight, and a fondness for other drugs, like benzos/opiates.

As far as i know the body can become accustomed to laxatives and in order for your system to work properly and not 'get bunged up' you need to reduce them slowly. I am no expert tho. There is 1 or 2 other regulars here (excuse the unintentional pun) who have had this, maybe they have more advice for you if they see this.

I might be an expert on taking other drugs, and i did/do that to escape unplesant emotions, memories, and past & present events.

I am worse at times of stress too. I am glad you felt able to post about it here, at least you are sharing it with 'somebody'.

Like mine, yours is a physical & mental/emotional problem both, that involves legal (or prescribed) drugs .

'Relief' being the goal, as it is for me, relief from my f**king head.

Its great you have your b/f support, but i would ask if you could go to see a dr , maybe one that specialises in ED, that could give you medical advice on getting off them, if its what you want. Or refer to a councellor to work on your issues that cause this,

((Insideoutgirl)) Happy halloween & hope you feel better for posting, xx am

[Insideoutgirl]

Hey hunny

Thank you for your reply. I do feel better for posting actually. I'm not usually good at opening up to people but this feels a safe space =)

I did go to my g.p. and talked about the problem along with various other issues ( some of which were..paranoia, anger, confusion, avoiding people, feeling wooden (which really freaks me out) but my g.p. didn't really seem to care. I was prescribed Sertraline but nothing else was said. This helped me have a clearer head for the first few weeks and I was able to be less compulsive or so I thought however I was drinking excessively and now the tablets have crept back in too.

Yeah it is like you say relief from thoughts, mine being paranoid or self critical ones or worry about being rejected somehow.

I have found a counsellor so hopefully can start to talk about issues with with her. I'm going on Thursday. I have never seen a counsellor before so don't know where to begin!

I want to find another way of gaining some relief. Hoping that by using this forum more might help... like at this current moment it is distracting me and allowing me to express. =) and it really helps to have someone actually listen too!

Big Halloween hugs!

Gem xx

I hope you

[Insideoutgirl]

that last bit was supposed to say i hope you dont get too hassled by trick or treaters!

[Benway]

Hahaa , well, i unwittingly opened the door to the first lot, and am now hiding in the back kitchen where they cant see any lights on.

Weird, I remember other years dressing up & getting into the spirit of it all.

Hope they don't hassle you too much either, an hope you find the forum useful too, i have found it my 'safe space' and have learnt a lot about myself & my 'illness' or whatever the fook it is these past years.

Good luck with the councelling, have you tried hypnosis mp3s?

I d/loaded one recently (Glenn Harrold) on 'Improving self esteem". I am trying not to allow myself self-critical thoughts on the past.

Listening to hypnosis / guided meditation mp3s is a nice way to relax as well.

Take care, & good luck on thursday. xx am

[Bonkers101]

I find those Mp3s really helpful - I've listened to Glenn Harrold but find Paul McKenna a bit better for some reason, I think its his voice?? I try to listen to it when I'm going asleep (as I usually fall asleep to it) so it remains to be seen whether I'm just conked out or any of it seeps in but I usually feel better the next day haha!!

Hope you well Insideoutgirl

xxx

[Insideoutgirl]

Thanks for the suggestions. I think I have some guided meditations on a c.d. that came in a mindfulness book I bought so I shall give it a go. Ill definitely look into Glenn Harrold and Paul Mckenna too. Is there any particular titles which are good?

I need as many positive things as I can at the moment.

This week has been a bit like a rollercoaster!

My counselling wasn't as productive as I'd hoped. I was told she didn't know whether she should be working with me as I have been referred to IAPT and waiting to here back from them.

Quite a lot has happened this week.

Good and bad!

Happy bonfire weekend!

xxx

[Insideoutgirl]

O.K so this is what has happened this week. I know I posted this already in crisis but think its more valuable here.

This week has been a complete rollercoaster.

On monday (Halloween) I had a little party at my house for my birthday (which was the day after) It had been organised for me and was lovely, just my flatmates and boyfriend so a nice little number and I was really enjoying it.... However unfortunately I had taken an overdose of aquban tablets earlier on in the day. I had been aware how I was feeling but had no-one to talk to about it =(

It was really stupid because I've done the exact same thing before and no what happens =/

So although I had a great time. At about 12:30 at night I began being sick and couldn't stop. My boyfriend had to call an ambulance and I was going in and out of consciousness... it was REALLY bad. I'm lucky to be here. We ended up in A & E for 11 hours. I had to have my blood taken and my veins collapsed. I wasn't really aware what was going on and was apparently quite aggressive and rude towards my boyfriend and the ambulance people and refused to co-operate with the doctor.

I'm frightened as I don't have control over this. I really want to but no-one listens. I have been trying to tell my g.p. for some time but they don't seem to care!

Anyhow after 11 hours in A & E I had to see the crisis team who asked me loads of questions and referred me to IAPT.

I don't know much about IAPT but I hope they are going to help and I hope they are going to listen and not just fob me off.

Gem xx

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