lonelyheartemma Posted October 6, 2012 Report Share Posted October 6, 2012 I'm having a birthday party in a chat room I invited 22 people. 15 replied and said they would come. yesterday on my birthday 3 people told me they wouldnt come, 2 more said they probably wouldnt. 4 people showed up. now theyve all gone to bed except me. I cant really go because other people are on different time zones and they might still show up. but i'm just so aware that not even the people i know online wanted to spend that much time with me my best friend said she would stay up for most of the night with me, she went to bed about quarter of an hour ago she promised lots of things for my birthday and didnt do them I'm not angry with her i just hate myself for not being likeable enough for her to keep promises I am so sad and lonely and i have to stay here on my own for 4 more hours just in case someone else comes its so depressing. I should have had a party here again that was so much better Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
yvette Posted October 6, 2012 Report Share Posted October 6, 2012 I have two very special friends in my life x its not quantity its quality. You must be so upset about others but I'm sure they had good reason. Never take it personally xx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
carlylight1 Posted October 6, 2012 Report Share Posted October 6, 2012 (((emma))) massive hugs xxxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
alizae Posted October 6, 2012 Report Share Posted October 6, 2012 That is like the worst thing ever! People could at least fake interest by showing up, leaving the computer on and do something else. That would be mean and impolite too but sometimes it's better to believe in an illusion. You must be so upset about others but I'm sure they had good reason. No, as I understood, they never informed that they could not come to the party. And did they ever apologize the next day? If not, then they had no excuse nor any good reasons for this behavior. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
fedup! Posted October 6, 2012 Report Share Posted October 6, 2012 emma xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Please go to the 'Good day' section of the forum and read all of our Happy Birthday wishes to you! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Barebones Posted October 6, 2012 Report Share Posted October 6, 2012 sry you had a bad night hun xx hopfully u may have a better day x Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lonelyheartemma Posted October 6, 2012 Author Report Share Posted October 6, 2012 Alizae is right, most of them just did not come and did not apologise today. one of the 4 who showed up is actually one of the 4 who said she wasnt coming. I was going to go to london and pay for a hotel for everyone, imagine if i had done that and they didnt come! so glad i was too ill to go to london or the humiliation would have been worse I dont think i want friends now, i think people just dont like me Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
alizae Posted October 6, 2012 Report Share Posted October 6, 2012 I dont think i want friends now, i think people just dont like me Oh, please don't think like that! Everyone needs and deserves friends. It is not possible to survive in loneliness. I know that sadly too well. Please never fall into a state where you lose your hope since in the end, the world is not a bad place (just a f*cked up and insane place). Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lonelyheartemma Posted October 6, 2012 Author Report Share Posted October 6, 2012 I dont really want to survive tbh. but I will because i dont think i'd be any good at suicide. but thank you for your reply Alizae and its really nice to meet you xxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
alizae Posted October 6, 2012 Report Share Posted October 6, 2012 I don't want to bother you, but I sensed sadness in you. Do you want to talk in private? I understand that if you don't because you don't know me. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
donnam Posted October 6, 2012 Report Share Posted October 6, 2012 we will have joint party here next year so u wont be alone Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
alizae Posted October 6, 2012 Report Share Posted October 6, 2012 we will have joint party here next year so u wont be alone Cool! Sign me in! I'd love getting stoned again! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lonelyheartemma Posted October 8, 2012 Author Report Share Posted October 8, 2012 I don't want to bother you, but I sensed sadness in you. Do you want to talk in private? I understand that if you don't because you don't know me. Thats really sweet of you I'm happy to talk on here if i can find the words because everyone is really great but theres always pm if you wanted to say something privately Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dolphin92 Posted October 14, 2012 Report Share Posted October 14, 2012 Firstly, happy belated birthday hun. I'm so sorry that your birthday wasn't a good one, but as you can see from these posts and the happy birthday messages we were all thinking of you here so you are valued. I understand how you're feeling to a certain extent as my birthday sucked too, I felt lonely too. If you ever need to talk we're all here for you, and I'm on this site a fair bit so if you wanna PM me feel free to xx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
N21 Posted October 15, 2012 Report Share Posted October 15, 2012 Sorry you didn't have a good birthday hope you feel better soon xxxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Maddison Posted October 15, 2012 Report Share Posted October 15, 2012 I doubt the people that missed your birthday deserve your friend ship hunni. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lonelyheartemma Posted October 18, 2012 Author Report Share Posted October 18, 2012 thank you Missunderstood, Ithinkineedhelp and Maddison Maybe we should just forget birthdays and just buy presents for people when the mood takes us. tho if there was no set day, maybe i'd never get presents! maybe they arent Maddison. tbh I have only spoken to one of them since then and that was a very short convo. But I miss them. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Maddison Posted October 18, 2012 Report Share Posted October 18, 2012 Maybe we should just forget birthdays and just buy presents for people when the mood takes us That is a real cool idea! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
loser_loser Posted October 19, 2012 Report Share Posted October 19, 2012 I dont think i want friends now, i think people just dont like me I dont really want to survive tbh. but I will because i dont think i'd be any good at suicide. but thank you for your reply Alizae and its really nice to meet you xxx Hey!! I just read your msgs till this point. I can understand how bad you must have felt. But frankly, you should be around people who like you, who want your company, who make you feel good. I do not know the whole story or anything about your life and that of your friends, but personally I think it was great that out of 22, at least 4 showed up. Even though they did not stay up late (they should ve), but you can try to extend your friendship with them. It grows with time. If yes, then you can celebrate your next birthday with them. try joining some group act, get involved more and more. try once, twice , thrice... it will work. First of all, you will have to feel good about yourself, be a radiator (give positive vibes). Be fun loving, cool... I guess the problem is low self-esteem and hence, in no circumstance should you let yourself feel down. There will be times when you feel bad, but you have to take it as a learning and move ahead. Be so open, so full of life (throw yourself to the world) that everyone feels empty without you. Do not ever show your low-esteem to anyone. Try to know more about people, their sorrows, their lives, their experiences, and add something to cheer them up. And informal the better. Informal down to earth behavior shows that you are fun to be with and not stuck up. Be selfless. Always keep smiling to every one - without the need for return. Have an identity. you can!! any more questions I will try to answer. I keep going through these situations, but time and again, there is one fighting spirit which beckons! Life goes on, and you have to deal. There is no other way! Gud luck!! please invite me to any party anytime. I will pop up!! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
addy2 Posted October 19, 2012 Report Share Posted October 19, 2012 Hugs Emma, i am so sorry that happened, for what its worth i think you are an amazing person and people should be privledged to be your friend you have always been so kind and helpful to me you are truly a lovely, kind person.xx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lonelyheartemma Posted October 20, 2012 Author Report Share Posted October 20, 2012 I love you Addy <3 thank you. no one whos met me thinks that but its so nice to read it xxx loser_loser if only i could do one of those things. then maybe i wouldnt have made the thread at all. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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