nikij89 Posted October 28, 2012 Report Share Posted October 28, 2012 Can anyone enlighten me on why I cannot access chat or blogs? I have paid for a months subscription if this has anything to do with it. Just a little tip on how to use this thing as I completely new to all this and its starting to frustrate me as I don't understand. Please help...x Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AmyP Posted October 28, 2012 Report Share Posted October 28, 2012 hey, the subscription may take a while to update, but if it is bothering you it may be worth sending a message to Josh or Lily to see if there is a problem xx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
nikij89 Posted October 28, 2012 Author Report Share Posted October 28, 2012 Oh that's ok if it takes time. It's just frustrating saying I have messages I can't open. Thank you for your reply X Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
maddy harper Posted October 28, 2012 Report Share Posted October 28, 2012 hello and welcome to the forums :) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AmyP Posted October 28, 2012 Report Share Posted October 28, 2012 yeh understand it can be frustrating welcome, hope you find what you need here xx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
nikij89 Posted October 28, 2012 Author Report Share Posted October 28, 2012 Thank you Maddy Thank you Pandora I'm still trying to work it out and hopefully when more people see me and my 'about me' that ill get more messages. As silly as I feel saying this, I just want some support and to be in a place where I'm not judged and everyone is kind of in the same position. Hopefully I will find it. X Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Maddison Posted October 28, 2012 Report Share Posted October 28, 2012 You will hunni. :) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
nikij89 Posted October 28, 2012 Author Report Share Posted October 28, 2012 I am trying to not be so negative but if I can't be myself then there isn't a point to it. Thank you x Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AmyP Posted October 28, 2012 Report Share Posted October 28, 2012 you're bound to find people can relate to how you feel here hun, maybe post about how you feel or message people if your wanting to someone to talk to? xx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AmyP Posted October 28, 2012 Report Share Posted October 28, 2012 do you feel like you cant be yourself? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
nikij89 Posted October 28, 2012 Author Report Share Posted October 28, 2012 I've just made a new topic. I'm going to try and use this sight as a daily blog for myself to update but invite others to do so with me. I'm scared of approaching people. I feel a burden on everyone in my actual life and even something as me messaging someone first makes me feel that way.x Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
nikij89 Posted October 28, 2012 Author Report Share Posted October 28, 2012 I'm scared of being myself. Scared that the little control I do have by putting a smiley face on for strangers, if I lose that I lose all control Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AmyP Posted October 28, 2012 Report Share Posted October 28, 2012 can relate to feeling like a burden, but hope you find that you're not here. as for being yourself, i like to think of this place as a safe haven, the one place in life where you can be yourself, pain and all, without it affecting your 'real' life. anonymity helps so much when talking about problems we face x Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
nikij89 Posted October 29, 2012 Author Report Share Posted October 29, 2012 Definitely. I joined up as like a last resort, I don't know what more I can do apart from let it take over. Its so selfish but I do wish I never had to wake up but I also wish I could wake up one day not regretting the fact I have awoke. I am finding it quite easy to speak but if u hadn't of wrote to me first I wouldn't have bothered. Thank u for all ur words though they mean a lot x Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
EmilyColdplay Posted October 29, 2012 Report Share Posted October 29, 2012 I'm new here. I just joined coz I feel like shit. I wish I was dead. I can't see any way out of my problems Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
nikij89 Posted October 29, 2012 Author Report Share Posted October 29, 2012 Aww babe don't speak like that. I'm new too. Send me a private message if you'd like to chat or feel free to speak to me here xxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
EmilyColdplay Posted October 29, 2012 Report Share Posted October 29, 2012 Thanks. I don't even have the energy to pm, thats how messed up I feel. No-one understands my BPD and it's combined with depression, insomnia, anxiety. I've got fed up with fb coz ppl just post happy photos Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
EmilyColdplay Posted October 29, 2012 Report Share Posted October 29, 2012 p.s. is there any cure for bpd? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
nikij89 Posted October 29, 2012 Author Report Share Posted October 29, 2012 I am exactly the same. Im sick of having to pretend to be happy. I only joined this site last night and I have found it so helpful and the people are fabulous. Your not alone. I've got BPD, anxiety, bipolar and anorexia. Please don't think no1 understands because we all in the same boat on here.x Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
nikij89 Posted October 29, 2012 Author Report Share Posted October 29, 2012 Unfortunately they say there isn't a cure but they do say that with a mixture of medication and therapies it becomes more manageable to live with. Are you on any medication? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
EmilyColdplay Posted October 29, 2012 Report Share Posted October 29, 2012 Thanks. It's pure hell. I can have the odd day when I feel good but then I crash. I've had 2 attempts and still feel capable of going for it again. I don't trust myself. I rang my Dad last night abd said should I go to hospital coz I feel suicidal and he just said "do something nice" Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
EmilyColdplay Posted October 29, 2012 Report Share Posted October 29, 2012 Yeah, loads of meds and referred for DBT Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
nikij89 Posted October 29, 2012 Author Report Share Posted October 29, 2012 I'm the same. I'm on a waiting list too. Do you know how long you have to wait? I wish it was that easy as doing something nice otherwise we'd all be in a happy place. I think you should have a read on some of the topics on here and talk to some of us. I have also tried suicide but it isn't the answer. Do you have a good support network around u? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
nikij89 Posted October 29, 2012 Author Report Share Posted October 29, 2012 Please don't suffer in silence x Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
EmilyColdplay Posted October 29, 2012 Report Share Posted October 29, 2012 Dunno how long the list is. I'm just worried I won't last that long. I wish I had the kind of mental illness that meds can fix :( Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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