JasmineRose Posted October 30, 2012 Report Share Posted October 30, 2012 This morning I've submitted my application for intermediate rent/shared ownership housing. This involved several phone calls to get information, etc. I've also registered for several letting agents online. Last night I got home to find my landlady/flatmate hadn't filled in the electoral roll form, and she's away this week, and I had to phone re that. They're sending a new form and I'll send it off tomorrow. But I feel totally stressed about that. She has these times of not being honest about things, and I'm so worried. I was so stressed, and I lost it when upstairs was drumming his fingers loudly, cue him doing it even more loudly and continuously, until I stuffed all my sound defence ear wear in and took my meds and a zopiclone and went to bed. I'm facing some really deep, difficult and important things in therapy. I feel so stressed... I really need to approach letting agents more directly, but I feel I've done enough of getting 'out there' for today. I feel sort of wired, and exhausted, not quite sure what to do now. I'll hear back by the end of the week-ish re the application. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Maddison Posted October 30, 2012 Report Share Posted October 30, 2012 Good luck hunni! I think you've done great for today. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JasmineRose Posted October 30, 2012 Author Report Share Posted October 30, 2012 Thank you Maddison. It's just the people upstairs thing. It's ok at the moment. But I am just so scared. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Maddison Posted October 30, 2012 Report Share Posted October 30, 2012 Hunni try and relax, I know it is silly for me to say, I have panic attacks because I worry about panic attacks! I think you've done well and hope you can see that? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JasmineRose Posted October 30, 2012 Author Report Share Posted October 30, 2012 Yes I can. But there's horrible stuff in me and it makes people treat me horribly. What if it follows me everywhere? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Maddison Posted October 30, 2012 Report Share Posted October 30, 2012 What do you mean, horrible stuff? You sound tired hunni. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JasmineRose Posted October 30, 2012 Author Report Share Posted October 30, 2012 I am tired, really tired. Thanks for noticing. Abusive feelings. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Maddison Posted October 30, 2012 Report Share Posted October 30, 2012 You won't get a way from your self but you can move to a place that makes you feel happier. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JasmineRose Posted October 30, 2012 Author Report Share Posted October 30, 2012 I know. Just, all these things take work and time and are very exposing. As a lodger, one can become very officially invisible, as if one doesn't really exist. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Maddison Posted October 30, 2012 Report Share Posted October 30, 2012 It will get better hunni, keep going, you've done great today. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JasmineRose Posted October 30, 2012 Author Report Share Posted October 30, 2012 Thank you, that means a lot. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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JasmineRose Posted October 31, 2012 Author Report Share Posted October 31, 2012 Thank you. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Maddison Posted October 31, 2012 Report Share Posted October 31, 2012 How are you hunni? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JasmineRose Posted October 31, 2012 Author Report Share Posted October 31, 2012 Still feeling a bit wired, empty, angry sad. Thanks for asking, for caring.. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Maddison Posted October 31, 2012 Report Share Posted October 31, 2012 Feel better soon hunni. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JasmineRose Posted October 31, 2012 Author Report Share Posted October 31, 2012 Thank you. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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