Jinxsta Posted December 15, 2012 Report Share Posted December 15, 2012 Sorting out my storage cupboard, and coming across lots of diaries and drawings... a video camera and a usb memory stick, lots of files on it, found a poem i wrote, the usb device dates it as 2007 but could be earlier than that i suspect... found it quite amusing, but sadly STILL very familliar... Pray i'll fight another day Woke up this morning with a bang, My brain telling me its terroists again. Go to the toilet, don't touch a thing, dont sit on the seat if its not clean. Flush the chain using tissue, 8 layers required, so that germs aren't an issue. Turn on the taps using my sleeve, all the germs off wot a relief! braekfast time? am I hungry or not?, and if I am what do I want?, Sandwhich, I think, bacon and brie, but isn't it fattening to eat too much cheese? well im fat anyway, but i'll use the grill, but if it catches fire it could kill, and now i've thought about it, it probably will, Ok now the bacon should be done, check the grill 3 times make sure its not on. Butter the bread with the knife, careful, if I slipped it could take my life. time to cut, start to score it, straight or diagonal 2 or 4 bit?. Time to eat, but which way round, back to front or upside down?. I decided and ate it now, now its time to go down town. Tissue on my shoe? flies undone? I swear i heard someone making fun, Got my wallet, but wheres my fone? Oh no! im sure I didn't leave it at home. Oops! its in my pocket been there the whole time! but I still feel i've left something behind, maybe I left on the grill, or didn't lock the door, i'll have to go back and check some more. Finally I get to the shops, but now im here i've forgotten what I want Oh yeah night out! I really need a top black or red, black or red? someone make it stop! Can't afford both, GGGRRRRRRR i'll just get neither now i've got nothing wear no trousers either Ah I know that other outfit, AMEN! but will someone notice that i've worn it again? right decision made, ill leave the shop theres a security guard, will he make me stop? has something fallen in my bag? or something hooked onto my jeans at the back? past the alarms, heart beating ten to the dozen and oh my god! did I turn of that oven? right bus stop, round my mums for lunch actually why she being so nice, i've got a hunch Where the hell is this bus, makes me mad been 5 minutes, im the bull the bus is the rag Here it is, blunt with the driver, Don't give him the change give him fiver, get it straight in my head where im going, what's this driver doing why is he slowing? Stopping for people to get on, lots of them queues so long! oLd lady, middle aged man, woman with a child why am I looking am I a paedophile? ...man with a dog, OH NO a muslim guy! padded jacket, a bomb, man im gonna die? Just shut-up now! thats racist talk, NO! its cautious, beside hes got a funny walk Ill move to the back, thats where ill stay, now if a bomb goes off I should be able to walk away Now the next stop is mine not a busy place, no target, should be fine! Back to the quetion why did mum invite me round, Hold on a minute wots that sound? A plane! where? what kind? ah just the lifeguard and going in a straight line Dinners done just as i walk through the door, Please check my chicken I think it's raw alright its ok, but these peas taste weird oooooh maybe theres poison been put in here Thats the reason she wants to get rid! Lou, don't listen to the voice in your head, now having a right laughbut can't tell her about OCD she will think im just paranoid, or think im a freak Ill just go home and go to bed, maybe that will stop the voice in my head at home now, check everything safe am i missing something staring in my face touch the TV three times or your gonna die, Don't be silly, but i'll do it to satisfy my mind in bed, will I kill someone in my sleep, couldn't handle prison, im too weak! and what if i sleep and begin to talk someone could wake and hear my thoughts! If they heard, i would be exposed, and destoy the normal person i've posed Maybe I should sleep when someone wakes up then there there if a fire erupts and where my cat, "where are you babe?" wot if someone broke in, took her away there she is, ill give thanks and pray, and pray ill fight another day. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
SweetDeanie Posted December 15, 2012 Report Share Posted December 15, 2012 This is really really good and describes OCD perfectly! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jinxsta Posted December 15, 2012 Author Report Share Posted December 15, 2012 Awww thanks... even though i cant even remember writing it! xx xx xx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
maddy harper Posted December 16, 2012 Report Share Posted December 16, 2012 thats really good btw Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jinxsta Posted December 16, 2012 Author Report Share Posted December 16, 2012 Thanks Maddy hun. xx xx xx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ukulele25 Posted December 27, 2012 Report Share Posted December 27, 2012 Wow jinxsta - you should send it to get published! xxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jinxsta Posted December 27, 2012 Author Report Share Posted December 27, 2012 Hey Ukulele, I got hundreds of poems i've wrote... wouldn't know where to start with publishing. Thanks. xx xx xx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
maddy harper Posted December 27, 2012 Report Share Posted December 27, 2012 keep posting them there really good Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jinxsta Posted December 27, 2012 Author Report Share Posted December 27, 2012 Thanks Maddy! Most are pretty dark... i used to class myself as a hip-hop artist.. my best mate and i used to perform in pompey, talent shows and such.... then i went crazy....er. xx xx xx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
maddy harper Posted December 27, 2012 Report Share Posted December 27, 2012 i'd love to hear some more of your poetry i really like your style Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ukulele25 Posted December 28, 2012 Report Share Posted December 28, 2012 There's loads of poetry slams and things like that around - you should start performing again! I'm not really sure hoe to get published either but I bet you could find out through good old google - I think you definitely have the talent for it! xxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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