Update

[starryeyesee]

Hi

I haven't been around for a while and just wanted to post about whats been going on in my life.

After moving back to the uk after 11 years abroad I got very depressed and was reffered mh services. I managed to get a job at the end of october working as an activities organiser in a nursing home 3 days a week. The job is quite stressful as some of the staff talk to me really badly.

I have a very difficult relationship with the other activities organiser. He generally critisizes me all the time and bullies me into doing stuff so that he doesn't have to do it. I have been told by my boss to stand up for myself and the one occasion I did I came off worse. Most of my worrying out of work hours is about this relationship.

I saw a pdoc for four sessions and was then signed off. He told me I would be reffered for therapy but I haven't heard anything and also that I am to be withdrawn from my anti psychotic starting in the new year. I have been taking it for 3 years and am quite worried about cutting it down without any mh support as the last time I did that I had a lot of crises.

I am spending a lot of time alone as most of my old friends now have children and are too busy to socialise. So I'm quite lonely and depressed most of the time. I'm finding it hard to accept that this is what my life will be like from now on

Sorry for the long post

Hope you're all ok

Starry

xxx

[Data]

I can understand why you are finding it hard to accept that, because it sounds pretty miserable .

I am sorry there is a culture of bullying at your work. I am due to start a new job in 8 days and I am nervous. I hope things improve for you.

You sound nervous about coming off your antipsychotics. Why does the pdoc want to withdraw them? Are you getting bad side effects? Have you not had any psychotic symptoms for a while?

If you are feeling stressed, maybe you could get the pdoc to understand this. Maybe what you need to do is to cut the medication down to a lower dose, rather than withdraw it altogether? Just an idea that you could talk to the pdoc about, because when you are feeling really stressed, in my personal experience that is usually not a good time to come off medication.

[Christine001]

its nice to hear from you starry, even if things are not so great, but thats how it is now the future is a long time and I am sure it will hold more happiness than you realise right now x

[catsmother21]

I'm not about much now Starry but have wondered how you have been doing. I am sorry to hear that things aren't good for you and wish you lots of love and hope that you will receive the help and support that you need soon.

Love Cats

xxxx

[Fanta]

Hi Starry,

Sorry to hear that things are tough for you, Maybe ask your Pdoc to reduce your meds to a lower dose as Data says?

Also at times therapy can take some time to hear back from them, I waited 6 months last year.

I hope everything improves for you.xx

[starryeyesee]

Hi

Thanks for the replies

Unfortunatly my pdoc has signed me off. He wants to take me off the anti p because I don't have psychotic symptons anymore. He thinks I was wrongly prescibed them when I lived in France and wants me to cut down by 1mg every three months - I'm on 4mg risperidone daily - so the taper is a slow one.

It is nice to reconnect with you all on here and its good to know you are all still here for me.

xxx

[Benway]

(((starry))) It is really good to hear from you.

I am sorry to read of your work issues, and hate to think of you worrying yourself over this man.

I hope you get on ok with the taper from the anti-p, and of course we are still here for you.

Thanks for the update, Happy New Year & take care, Love & hugs xx am