When I Go

[aquila12]

Don't cry for me when i go

Tears are wasted on me

Is it possible that you don't see

The living me has long since flee

This empty container has no life

No soul to motivate

No heart to to try for a better fate

Now its time, its just too late

The girl who once laughed and played

Has been taken away

The depression and fear came to stay

So destroyed and helpless down I lay

I tried so hard to fight it off

But the courage delayed a bit too long

My spirit and mind couldn't stay strong

So i became lost and trapped in this world so wrong

The confidence I had was swept away

Replaced with a deep rooted self loathing

That makes me sumbit myself to punishment and bullying

To destroy from within me my evil being

I use to cut my wrists

To drive all my internal pain out

I wanted to scream, I needed to shout

But nevertheless i wanted life without a doubt

The razor had gone, its kept away

Some people think this means im better

But i dont need it now i have the letter

And death is waiting to collects its debtor

So one more time ill say goodbye

Ill wear my fake smile one more day

Then at last I'll go my own way

I gave my tears, blood and happiness and now with my life the debt is paid

Down in the cold peaceful earth I'll lay

This life is mine, i choose to die and then i will finally fly

[Apollo 13]

I think you have have flown as high as anyone can with that mesmerising and haunting tale.

Beautifully constructed and agonisingly real pain, you have an amazing talent.....................to bring llife to once there was void...........Please, are there other beautiful contributions you may give us?