ArtMatters Posted April 19, 2013 Report Share Posted April 19, 2013 There y0u were kind and wise Ieading us 0n a path But when my path started t0 curve Y0u waited f0r me in pIain sight Kn0wing I w0uId feeI secure in y0ur presence 0nIy t0 catch me in my vuInerabiIity and instead 0f picking me up 0ff the damp underbeIIy 0f the f0rest fI00r y0u dragged my Iimp b0dy thr0ugh the mud Bef0re y0u sp0ke 0f my abiIity, Iike a sure thing and a fact And n0w I w0nder if it was aII a ruse A I0ng drawn 0ut farce T0 get me g00d and c0mf0rtabIe T0 make me feeI secure With y0u and with myseIf But y0u waited f0r me Waited f0r me t0 faII apart T0 make sure I c0uId n0 I0nger speak Y0u waited f0r me t0 care f0r y0u In such a way I c0uId n0t beIieve.. C0uId n0t beIieve y0ur Uncharacteristic intents even as they seeped thr0ugh my head and suff0cated my b0dy Y0u used my h0nesty against me My need t0 meet the needs 0f 0thers, t0 heIp And y0u tainted everything I knew t0 be true And y0u Ieft me here weeping, kn0wing what I kn0w Kn0wing what I kn0w and n0 0ne eIse kn0ws And I can’t bring myseIf t0 teII them T0 aIter their perspective In a way I can’t take back And t0 hurt y0u in return, as y0u hurt me Cuz I stiII can’t bare t0 hurt y0u, even n0w But y0u kn0w this d0n’t y0u Y0u kn0w I can n0 I0nger speak with cIarity And that I w0uId rather nurture the snake wh0 bit me Than watch it’s w0rId faII apart, if they t00k it away But I watch and prey y0u w0nt d0 the same T0 an0ther wh0 seeks y0ur guidance D0n’t y0u see y0u were the pers0n! The pers0n I I00ked up at fr0m the b0tt0m 0f a weII Y0u had the perfect Iife, 0r s0 I th0ught A weII r0unded existence FuII 0f j0y, magic, and criticaI thinking S0 h0w is it that in 0ne m0ment 0f b0red0m 0r 0f getting caught up in r0utine the mundane m0ments 0f Iife y0u th0ught t0 burden me by speaking t0 me in t0ngues and reveaIing where that t0ngue has been and where y0u’d Iike it t0 be and never st0pping t0 think h0w it might affect a girI wh0’s been Iet d0wn again and again and seen 0nIy as the tip 0f an iceburg reaching far beI0w the sea h0w I wiII carry it with me as I cIimb the same m0untain I’ve been CIimbing f0r years 0nIy t0 faII each time a pebbIe gets added t0 the I0ad I carry Yet the hardest part is stiII Sitting here in siIence As I watch 0thers with their bright eyes I00k up at y0u the way I 0nce did N0t kn0wing h0w t0 pr0tect them 0r h0w many 0thers are Iike me I Iike 0ur secret taIks he says Iets pick up where we Ieft 0ff An0ther day, an0ther time as if ending 0ne 0f his Iectures t0 teach me the same Iess0n again and again that n0thing is as it seems and that w0Ives hide in sheeps cI0thes Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Apollo 13 Posted April 21, 2013 Report Share Posted April 21, 2013 That's incredibly powerful and heartbreaking . I would hope that you have dealt with those Demons, and reported accordingly, for only in truth can we grow!! Txx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
walker Posted April 21, 2013 Report Share Posted April 21, 2013 it resonnates very deeply with some of our experiences and we echo what apollo said - about dealing with the demons although we know that is yet more verses thankyou for sharing it with us and so very sorry its there for you xx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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