Its Only 8Am

[walker]

and we are already on the chocolate

we are selfmedicating

eating a diet almost exclusively of sweet foods

its not good

its not good at all

(ok its ok we know we dont have an eating disorder - but where else should we write this?)

day, night, dawn, midnight, anytime

if we are awake, we are needing it - sugar mainly

we lost most of the weight we put on in hospital

now its going back again

we are so fat so foul so gross

we are this little kid inside - mostly - then we see this fat woman

we refuse meds we kid ourselves we are coping

REALLY?

we are in and out of crisis on an almost daily crisis

we are sh

and we are bingeing -

and we are foul

sorry

just that we cant seem to control this

[pepsimeg]

(((walker))) we dont think u r fat or foul

we see a very kind thoughtful person.

But u r going thru so much lately

if sweets and stuff helps u then have some.

Take care all xxx

[Pickle59]

((((Walker))))......I understand about the self medicating to ease the emotional pain........please try not to beat yourself up about this though...........sending you loads of ........from the Tea, 3 sugars lady, at least 20 times a day.xxx

[walker]

we are wound up like a spring

we dont know if its the quantity of sugar in our system

or if its because we need more

we are not well

we should know that by now yet we never accept it

we are out of control but in control of being out of control

its not good

[Threemoons]

It's okay, Walker, if you need some sweet food for now it's totally alright. You'll be back to a healthy diet when things are more controllable. Don't beat yourself up please. Safe hugs and caring for you.

[walker]

thats very kind of you to say - threemoons

trouble is

we wont

we are lots overweight

and we really eat a 'healthy diet'

we are surviving on cereal, sweet foods and then dinner most evenings

+ all the stuff we eat inbetween none of which is any good for us