Becca95 Posted December 24, 2013 Report Share Posted December 24, 2013 I've been referred from CAMHS to the Adult Mental Health services I think it is. So, I booked my assessment this morning for 9th of January. I'm really panicking about what they'll ask. Obviously, I had an assessment when I was transferred to CAMHS and they asked about sh and suicide ideation etc. Well then, I hadn't experienced or even thought of anything like that. Now, I have sh (have managed to pretty much stop because of my bf now) and I think about suicide a lot and picture it and think I should just od to escape, not to kill myself but to escape from all the shit. I never told my councillor that things had changed because I struggle to talk as it is let alone confess all that. I don't really want anyone else knowing.. but Im also worried that if I don't tell the truth I'll always be struggling because I never tad anyone. So I'm worrying, obviously they'll probably ask me that again and I'm torn about what to say. What if they tell my previous councillor and I get into trouble, what if they try and section me or put me on medication? I'm so scared I'll lose control of things if you know what I mean? Also, I was referred to this place to see someone about my anxiety in the hope that'll help me with my ed because I feel thats the cause of it and why I haven't made any improvements for around a year and a half now. However, I have other issues on my mind at the moment, such as moods, emotions and all that, I'm seriously wondering whether I have BPD or something along those lines but am I able to talk about that if I've just been reffered for anxiety? So confused. Ahh, stressing out. :S Is anyone able to shed any light or help me please? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mousie Posted December 24, 2013 Report Share Posted December 24, 2013 i hope its ok to reply first off most folks in mental health want to do a good job and in my experience over the last few years budgets are so tight they only section folks if they're at serious immediate risk and with what you've described, you don't sound like you are in immediate danger please forgive and correct me if i'm wrong they mostly want to enable healthy, safe living as otherwise their wards would be bursting at the seams (they're usually to capacity this time of year anyways) and as you're in therapy its probably a handover to the adult service just a guess and if they know their stuff they will know that sh is about coping and they're likely to ask you for sure about suicidal stuff but if you don't have immediate defined plans etc they will want to keep in touch with you and that's about keeping you safe but i've not come across anyone being locked up for having ideation but that's just my experience so i think it will be positive and disclosure about sh and suicidal thinking is kinda expected and they will have heard it many times so you won't be shocking or distressing professionals but it clues them in so that they can provide realistic support rather than letting you flap in the breeze with less support than you may need i hope this is useful Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Becca95 Posted December 24, 2013 Author Report Share Posted December 24, 2013 Thank you Mousie, it did help. It has got me thinking, I suppose I should treat this as a new start and if I'm open and honest then I'm likely to get more help maybe? I've been threatened before with hospital because of my ed, different I know but if I refused and they wanted me in there they have the power to section apparently so I guess I feel, with that threat already there, if I then tell them about the sh etc it might be the tip of the iceberg? I don't know. Thanks again xx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mousie Posted December 25, 2013 Report Share Posted December 25, 2013 i'd agree with that the ED stuff can get life threatening as you may know so that would be about keeping you alive but with what you've said being courageous and letting them in is huge even though they see this stuff every day handing over your trust is a biggie i know that very well but you'd be doing it for the right reasons and its good to state your concerns you wanting to be supported not hospitalised cos they like that and they've limited resources/budgets i hope they really do right by you and give you excellent support Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Becca95 Posted December 25, 2013 Author Report Share Posted December 25, 2013 Wow thank you Mousie, you're totally right! Just shows you should really think about things before shooting your mouth off aha Thank you so much! Xx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mousie Posted December 26, 2013 Report Share Posted December 26, 2013 not that i'm anyone but i respect that you have said that about yourself about shooting your mouth off because i can relate to that self relationship but i don't think you shot your mouth off you took courage and showed trust in sharing here and that's not only healthy, its beautiful, fragile and brave so, if its ok to say, please also honour that part of you that took the brave steps and continues to do so i was brought up short by someone for me mocking myself not that you have but it reminds me of how i can be with me and that i didn't, in that moment, have the depth of kindness that i am growing to have to self, and the many parts of me that are me, that are vulnerable and easily dismissed so being sensitive to self is quite a journey!! i'm wishing you a gentle and pleasant evening Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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