maddy harper Posted February 9, 2015 Author Report Share Posted February 9, 2015 Think its time for a medication review as i was head banging in front of my mate yesterday and i have never done that before. The voices wont leve me alone you see. I broke down n tears too. Hope they happy with them selvs Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Threemoons Posted February 9, 2015 Report Share Posted February 9, 2015 Oh, Maddy. Offering you a comforting hug. I wish I had a magic wand to make them go away. Maybe a meds review would be a good thing, as you seem to think. Talk about it with your doctor and please mention the increase in head banging and crying so he knows things are harder to deal with these days. Much love and compassion to you. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
maddy harper Posted February 10, 2015 Author Report Share Posted February 10, 2015 I cant stand it when i head bang but sometimes they get so bad i dont know what else to do if that makes sence. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Threemoons Posted February 10, 2015 Report Share Posted February 10, 2015 Yes, that makes sense. I sometimes hit my head with my hands when I want them to shut up. It doesn't work but give sort of a sensory distraction. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
maddy harper Posted February 11, 2015 Author Report Share Posted February 11, 2015 thank god you know where i am coming from. Most people see it as self harm though but i dont see it that way. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Threemoons Posted February 11, 2015 Report Share Posted February 11, 2015 Yeah, I guess doctors would also describe my hitting as self-harm too. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
maddy harper Posted February 11, 2015 Author Report Share Posted February 11, 2015 Sometimes what else is there left? You know what i mean? Voices been really bad today. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Threemoons Posted February 11, 2015 Report Share Posted February 11, 2015 Aw, hugs to you my precious Maddy. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
maddy harper Posted February 11, 2015 Author Report Share Posted February 11, 2015 aww thanks three moons. You are very kind. I dont deserve it. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
maddy harper Posted February 12, 2015 Author Report Share Posted February 12, 2015 The voices woke me up this morning. Thankfully i slept in again so they not as bad as usual. Wonder how long this s gonna last for? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Threemoons Posted February 12, 2015 Report Share Posted February 12, 2015 Well, do you still intend to ask for a med review? If so, when will you ask? I wish you peace for next morning. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
maddy harper Posted February 13, 2015 Author Report Share Posted February 13, 2015 this morning aint been too bad voices wise. They been pretty quiet tbh which is surprising for them as usually they never shut up. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
maddy harper Posted February 14, 2015 Author Report Share Posted February 14, 2015 new it was too good to last. If it gets any worse them i will have to go back in again. Just for a little while. I hope it doesnt come to that though as i would spend all my time worrying about my guinea piggys rather than trying to get better. i know what i am like when it comes to my animals. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Threemoons Posted February 14, 2015 Report Share Posted February 14, 2015 Sorry it was so bad today, Maddy. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
maddy harper Posted February 15, 2015 Author Report Share Posted February 15, 2015 a day in the life of someone who hears people that arnt there. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
maddy harper Posted February 16, 2015 Author Report Share Posted February 16, 2015 woke up this morning to my voices saying they were gonna kill me somehow. This is getting stupid as they are making me cry all the time. Broke down in front of my friend yesterday again. Really struggling right now and i dont know how to fix it. I would if i could. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Threemoons Posted February 16, 2015 Report Share Posted February 16, 2015 Sorry that the voices torture you Maddy, I'm not well myself either. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
maddy harper Posted February 17, 2015 Author Report Share Posted February 17, 2015 A note went on my flute during practice tonight so will have to take it back to where i got it from to see if i can get a exchange on it or what Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
maddy harper Posted February 19, 2015 Author Report Share Posted February 19, 2015 Had no sleep last night. Bloody voices! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
maddy harper Posted February 20, 2015 Author Report Share Posted February 20, 2015 Voices aint to bad this morning as my night time anti psychottics are pretty strong so i get a hang over from them so i feel pretty slow this morning. Feel like i been drinking when i aint. Wierd Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
complex-lemon Posted February 21, 2015 Report Share Posted February 21, 2015 It doesn't seem right to me Maddy that your meds are so ineffective that your voices are constantly around and also constantly on your case.I don't know how long it has been since your anti psychotic meds been reviewed but in last decade or so, my anti psychotics I take now are million times better than older style meds was on previously. Probably more effective as do not drink alcohol anymore too.The only other advice I can give is to somehow catch your voices and gently turn them into more supportive and empathetic voices in your favour.Did manage at times manage to switch the emphasis of my voices when they were at times ever present.But hopefully can suggest a review to your pdoc if not already done so.But totally sympathise and do know at times how difficult it can be living with these mega annoying loud mouths!!!!Hope your evening is as relaxed as it can be.Lemon Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
maddy harper Posted February 22, 2015 Author Report Share Posted February 22, 2015 hi lemon. I have set up a appointment system with my voices and it seems to be keeping them quiet. Its only day two of doing this but they seem to be more agreeable so there is hope. Fingers crossed. My meds were upped just before christmas there. They do help more than they would if i wasnt on them. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
maddy harper Posted February 25, 2015 Author Report Share Posted February 25, 2015 voices still upsetting me but my meds are starting to kick in properly now i think so they are liveable with well ish. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
maddy harper Posted February 26, 2015 Author Report Share Posted February 26, 2015 voices fuck off! Stop waking me n the middle of the fuckin night. Give me a brake would ya Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
maddy harper Posted March 3, 2015 Author Report Share Posted March 3, 2015 i have set up a appointment system with my voices where they can only talk to me at a sertain time and they have to try and be quiet the rest of the time. It seems to be working fingers crossed. Its early days still so i dont wanna get my hopes up too much yet. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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