It's. Gone on too long

[Johnster83]

where do I start ? I don't even know I'm so messed up never want to go out or socialise I have 2 lovely kids and a girlfriend I love so much but at the minute I just want to end my life and the reasons ? For the hell of me I do not know it started a few years ago suddenly and gradually got worse I've been through so much in the last 10 years and I'm only 32 I shout at my kids push my girl away and have no body to talk too. I have no friends and I'm a total loner some times I just lock my self away and cry been to the doctors numerous amounts of times but. It just doesn't work .....I always said I would never kill my self or attempt it but I'm so frightened lately that the feeling is getting stronger I hope some one can push me in the direction of help I am desperate sobbing as I write this.

 

sorry if this is not the place to have such a problem but Google pointed me in this direction

 

 

many thanks.

[ElizabethH14]

Hello Johnster,

Welcome on this forum. You are in the right place. I am so sorry to hear that you are feeling so bad at the moment. There are LOTS of people on here that understand and are going through similar situations. Who are feeling like they can't go on. Keep posting. And read through the old posts there is lots of very informative stuff on here. It will help you initially just to read and to know that others feel similar things and have similar problems.

Have you been to your GP? It is not easy to ask for help from a doctor but this may be an important step. Have you spoken to anyone in your near about how you are feeling? Do you have a diagnosis?

We will be on here for you listening and helping where we can.

Talking helps. I understand this alone feeling. I fight with this too.

Take care of yourself talk again soon

Elizabeth