Cant shake this feeling

[Tray]

Feel like running away. Just driving to the coast and sitting watching the waves. Iv called in aick the last 4 days. Said id upset tummy. I lied. Never done that before but i literally cant cope anymore with life. My meds are still not sorted. Still not heard back from shrink either. Feels pointless. Everythin does. I dont know how much longer i can take this. Im sat in the car trying not to cry outside the school. Have to pick keera up soon. I really eana be alone but i no its not safe for me to be... 

[Data]

It sounds like you are feeling very low at the moment Tray.  This must be hard for you. 

 

Its difficult coping with work and kids when you feel bad, I know that for personal experience.  You have a lot on your plate, Tray.

 

Is there anyone you can talk to about things?  A relative, friend, counsellor?  That helps me.

 

[Kimboski]

So sorry Tray that you are feeling so low at the moment.

It must be the hardest thing in the world right now...............but you can get through it.

I totally agree with Data, try to find someone to talk to and if you feel your meds aren't working then try to get back to your doctor.

I have recently changed meds and although it scared me.........I really do feel they are helping more than the old ones.

Just don't give up.

[Tray]

Me and my best mate who iv alwqys confided in, well things have been strained for a while. She has bipolor and i understand she is going throu a tough time but she seems to not care how i am just heraelf and i no it sounds horris but she is always woah me and my life is awful but she wont do anything about it or accept help and i cant deal with that right now. I have a 'friend' who i txt and occ meet and he is supportive but right now i feel like i just need to distance myself from everyone. Im back at work tomoz. Maybe that will help take my mind off things. I havnt showered or anything since the weekend. So in gona try do that now x

[Kimboski]

Again, please remember I am only trying to think what I could in a healthy way given your circumstances.

Your friend seems to be going the a tough time herself..........but how much more of yourself can you give without draining yourself? I have been told to try and draw healthy boundaries and know when you, or they, have reached them. When I'm thinking straight I can put these in place (kind of).

I honestly think if it were me I would be seeking professional help right now, as you seem at a low ebb with no one there.

I really wish you feel better soon.

Kim

[Tray]

I have a meeting with the psych team mon to see if they can offer anything for the panic attacks iv recently started to get again. Im not hopeful but at least i can tell them about the meds and that i cant get in touch with my shrink. Im due back at work tomoz and already can feel the panic inside. Iv managed a shower and done some washing today. Took keera to her swimming leason. Back home now trying not to cry at the slightest thing x

[successful_workthru]

On 12/05/2016 at 6:57 PM, Tray said:

I have a meeting with the psych team mon to see if they can offer anything for the panic attacks iv recently started to get again. Im not hopeful but at least i can tell them about the meds and that i cant get in touch with my shrink. Im due back at work tomoz and already can feel the panic inside. Iv managed a shower and done some washing today. Took keera to her swimming leason. Back home now trying not to cry at the slightest thing x

I'm crying a lot lately. My eyes are all swollen. I am really sorry to hear you are feeling like this and I hope you feel better soon, good luck with the psyche.